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Boys and Family, oh joy.

2005/11/04,12:40

BOYS

Okay, so I really, really, really like Justin.
He's so so so cute!
He knows I like him, and this thing with John has ended, so we'll see where it goes from here won't we.
I wonder if he likes me too.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in third grade again.
I think I need to take a break from going over to Johns house for a while, because we all know what happens when I go over there.
I just don't want that kind of relationship with him anymore.

FAMILY

Heres a new subject we havn't discussed before.
Let me give you the basics:

I grew up getting the shit beat out of me by moms husband, whom I am still terrified of.In the beggining of freshamn year, CPS (Child Protective Services) Removed me from the home.
I moved in with my aunt cheri, and we had lots of problems.
She kicked me out the summer before sophmore year.

I moved in with my dad, a manager of a succesful buisness who had been out of prison for 3 years and was now suposedly clean from meth.
To make a looooong story short, he wasn't clean, he moved me to a small town in the middle of nowhere, went to portland for a day and never came back.

I ended back up with my mom, whos husband was in ohio, and she called him and told him to stay there, since the state says I can't live with him. He did. after being there for a while, shit got crazy, she kicked me out, reported me as a runaway, and after a few days at Johns house, I am living with my grandpa.

My grandpa and his house are owned by my aunt cheri, who still thinks im a total fuck up, but knows I have no where else to go, so she lets me live there.

The whole point of this story was to tell you this:

Yesterday I missed first period at school, (I was doing homework for another class) and my aunt found out about it. She told me if I missed one more class I would have to move back in with my mom.
Well living with my mom is not a healthy environment for me to be in so I would NOT move back in with her, even if I had to leave my grandpas.
Anyways, yesterday after school, she called me, and I was expecting another huge fight.... BUT....

She apologized.

That was the last thing I expected. She told me she was out of line, she was upset becasue some of her own issues and she was tired. She told me that she wanted to see me finish highschool, and she was just frustrated with my irresponsible mom.

(I do love my mom, but she is whore. She is what she is I guess.)

I never thought this women was capable of admitting she was wrong.
She still hates me though. I know because she tells people.
I was suprised to find that it had a heart.

Even if its a small one.

Later.